Listening to: Panic! at the Disco, "Hurricane"
You'd think that with two weeks left in Colorado, I'd be getting ready to move, and absorbing the last bit of Colorado-ness I can....I'm not...
I'm anxious to move, to be with him, to start my life new...but I'm stalling...why? Because my family (my mother, mainly) is taking my uprooting very hard, and I find that it is hard for me to rip their hearts out.
I used to think that if I left home I wouldn't be missed...now I'm not so sure...will Mom miss me or is she just having abandonment issues? I want to be with my love, my everything and she is killing the joy I'm feeling at the rest of my life being so near...*sigh*...is that insensitive of me? Hmm...
I have so much to do: packing the essentials, finishing my work transfer, finding a place to live....ugh I need to write a list...
I'm looking forward to the challenge of making it on my own in a whole other state...I'm looking forward to seeing him everyday...my heart is with him in Mississippi, it's time I go home to him finally...I love you darling....14 days! =D
